our home..

 

It was the 2nd super long weekend for me in this month when I don't need to be in school from Saturday til Wednesday. Spent ample time with the boy and I really appreciate those moments very much.

And yesterday, on the 14th which is one of my favourite number, the boy and I finally made one of the biggest decision thus far. Nope, it's not about popping the million dollar question cos we both respected our decisions of establishing stable career paths first. Instead, we visited HDB hub for an appointment as early as 8.30am to have our flat selected :D I'm not sure if this consider lucky to you, but to us, having a queue number of 86 out of the 162 units is amazingly unbeliveable! And what made us felt that our prayers had been heard was that one of our unit choice was still available! Despite the fact that there is more than 160 units available for that BTO, the boy only filtered out 9 units out of the 162 and gosh, we actually got our first choice out of the 9 and I am very thankful for all the luck and prayers showered on us.

On a sad note, I'm actually having mixed feelings about the new flat which I know I shouldn't be at this point of time. No doubt that I am really excited about having a home of our own, but, the thought of us being in debts for the next couple of decades really kills me inside. It's like a huge burden just landed on our shoulders which we have to carry for a very long time. Moreover, still being a full-time student without a stable job and reasonable income, I'm not sure how are we gonna do it when the flat is exceptionally expensive :( I don't know what will be coming for me in future or rather, would I be able to get a job. Are we too rush in getting the flat especially when I'm still a student? But, if we are gonna wait, I wouldn't imagine property prices in future or if we will still be this lucky again the next time. Sigh..

Now, I cannot deny being old and cannot believe that I have to go through these life experiences of an adult.

 

On the happier note, I am really thankful and appreciate the boy for doing everything for us. The enrolling, filling up of application forms, printing of necessary documents and all other processes needed for applying the flat. All I ever did was just following him closely. haha!

Love this annoying boy of mine.

Thank you so much.!

Just One..

I think we do not need many friends in our lives. Even if it's just one that truly knows you, stand by you and still love you at your worst, it is worth much more than having dozens of friends who leave you in a lurch when you're in trouble.

 



 

 

 



 

Thank you for being that special one in my life.

disgust.

I know I should be feeling supportive at this point of time, but honestly, Idk why but I feel disgusted at how the whole team works. The words of encouragement and praises that seemed so insincere and fake. What transformation?  What system? They are all total rubbish that the "system" made it sound so nice. What's worst is that you are slowly becoming like them. Like as though they have poisoned you and captured your heart and soul and behaving like them. I received no praises nor encuragement from you, but they received everything from you. Teach me, through your "system", how can I not feel skeptical about this whole crap? How can I not feel upset and disgusted? If you people can't change the way I think, how are you all able to change or transform others? I really wonder..


ps: I've tried really hard to think like you guys..

Bkk - Aug 2012

For the 2nd time this year, the family went Bkk again with the exception of lil bro who has school to attend. It was a short trip and sinful trip because Dad was around and we spend most of our time eating instead of shopping :(

 

 

Day 1

 

 

Caught the earliest flight in the morning and we reached Bkk in the early noon. Despite the fact that Mom and Mili Sissy liked Grand Diamond hotel during our previous stay, this time round, we decided on the newly-opened Glow hotel, since 1st Aug this year, which is located right opposite Grand Diamond.

 

It is actually above a new shopping mall called Shibuya19.
And those right and white snow-flakes alike fixtures on the building glows during the night. Mad pretty when you see from the outside!

Dad and Mom looking so stern! haha!

 

I'm bad with cameras and dont know what i did to the settings that caused this picture to look so ghostly white.

Daddy always ready for cameras!

My S.shine.

Aww..

The best mom on earth!

And if you are wondering where the stair leads to, scroll down.

 It leads to the hotel's pool!

Beautiful but it's the wrong time of the month for swimming :(

 At the women's paradize, Platinum Mall.

And the crepe at the Basement that is always a must-eat whenever I'm there.

I prefer to savory ones compared to the sweet ones though.

My favourite promegranate juice.

The beautiful decent room for 3 nights with S.shine.

 

The places we should have gone

SCREWED.

Iamsodepressedofwhathadhappenedthismorningduringmylawpresentation&theprof'swordswerereallyhurtful!Icannotbelievesuchcommentscomingouthermouthandthishappeningtome.
IMSOSCREWED!FML!

A battle against time

And so, the past one week was really crazily hactic. Dad and Mom went Taiwan to attend a wedding dinner and my new maid will only be here end of this month. So, being the eldest in the family, I had to take care of the household chores. With not much experience espcially in washing of clothes, I swear it was like hell. I literally gave up hand-washing because i felt the stinking pain on my hands and use my legs and feet instead :x The mopping of floor was also difficult and I was prespiring like mad after because the naughtly little rascal's saliva (dried yellow stains) was all over the floor (white tiles). White is such a beautiful color and it's one of my fav. But it is also a difficult-to-maintain color:( 

 

Anyway, thankfully I had mili sissy who helped out during my school days when Im not at home, and the sweetest boy to chauffeur little bro and me to school early in the morning and buy dinner back for the kids at home. Appreciated !Despite the fact that it was really tough, but I've gained quite a valuable experience.

 

 

Overdued pictures to Bkk with the family months ago.

 

 



 

 

 hahaha! My daddy loves acting cute infront of the cam.

 

Now that Mom and Dad are back, I'm not anywhere near the distress words like; rest, relax, take a break. Instead, it's another tough battle with school work and assignments which are due next week! *OMG!* It is so bad that I can only give myself at most 7hrs of sleep during weekends and chiong all the work during the rest of the day :( Even this blog post is done while I'm doing my assignments which explains why it looks and sounds so effortless.

Kgtg.

*self-reminder* Rest of Bkk and taiwan photos up next blogpost.

ps: so much for learning how to handle stress in my career development module...

!@#$%^&*((*&^%$#@$%^&!!

Seriously, who are you to comment so much when u didnt even contribute anything to this family esp the household chores. Moreover, til now of my 22 years of age, your status in this family is unknown too which we didnt want to persue. You took up a room in the house, the privacy, contributed one the most in the piled up laudry. Because you pay a mere few hundred a month, does that mean that MY mom can do your laudry too?

Dear October

September swift past quickly with all the heavy workloads from both school and work.

And in the blink of an eye's time, it's the first day of October.

I hope this month will be smoother and kinder to me (which I dont think it will).

 

:'(

 

 

Gone were the days.

It's the 5th week of the 16 weeks of stress handling 6 modules at a time. Every single mods this sem is a killer especially Employment Law which I seriously don't know a single shit of what the lawyer was blabbering so far.

 

This stress is far too much. The worst ever since uni life started and I am at the verge of breaking down. I know there isn't much happy post from me recently, but I truly do feel like I'm tearing into pieces soon. Juggling school and part-time isn't easy and with the recent domestic issue happened recently, I'm added with more loads on my shoulder by sharing the burden of household chores with the pitiful greatest mommy.

 

I was taught in my career development class saying that everyone has stresses and we do need a way to deal with them. I do have my ways of stress-relief, but I think I'm slowly losing them. I know this may sound pessimistic, but, there's really nothing for me to look forward to anymore. Not the after school/work timings where I can have a well-deserved dinner with the love ones, not the usual shopping weekends, not the movie-craze I used to be, not any holidays or trips, no nothing at all.

 

It's another 11 weeks before term break and then winter term starts. I forsee more hectic days coming ahead. Sigh..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I miss those days, those smiles, and those holiday moods.

** Sometimes, I just wished someone can just hug me tight and tell me everything is gonna be ok. Someone who can help me be my source of motivation.**

Human's heart.

 

There have been some unhappy things happening at home recently which I don't wish to elaborate here. But through this incident, I saw how fast a human heart can change, and how evil money can be. I'm really disheartened and speechless. Despite treating her as part of our family with all the freedom she wishes for, yet such unbelievable things happened. I know it's common, but I just cannot accept the fact that it will happen on her, on us. I thought we were a big family including her. We were really happy and glad that we had her, but, why must she destroy the love, the trust, every single thing??

 

I don't know how this incident can affect me so badly. I had no appetite nor any mood to work. It felt like as though I can no longer trust anyone anymore. I know I sound melodramatic, but one thing you have to know about me is that, I am an emotional freak! I have a weak mind that allows my thoughts to run wild. I know it's not healthy, but it's inborn, and it's running in my veins for the longest time.

 

Big Sigh... 

 

 

 

 

My everything.

I wouldn't change anything for anyone of them.

 

It's us against the world now.

 Love you all.